Alright....

So I haven't updated this in FOREVER.. But thats okay, I'm working on it : D
Anyway, I'm gonna update on what's been going on in my life lately..

For starters, I'm in a relationship. That in itself is shocking enough. I've never been the relationship type. I mean, I've always considered myself more of a one-night-stand person, let alone capable of being in an exclusive relationship with one person. But apparently, I am? Haha I dunno, maybe its just the whole first boyfriend mindset, but everything just feels so.. right.
Don't get me wrong, there's a reason why this is my first update, I'm getting there haha. Pretty much, this year has been really rough for me. Whoever reads this would know that.. But like, I dunno, this past month, I've just been.. happier. Simply put. Haha I'm not really going to elaborate, pretty much because I don't even know myself. Thats all.

Second, I've recently become really close to some really great people. I hope all this isn't short lived due to the fact that they're all going to head off to college soon. All the same, I'm really grateful that I even got to get to know them, just a few more amazing people to add to my list.. of amazing people? Hahaha

Thirdly, thanks to aforementioned boyfriend and new friends, I've gained a new appreciation for some new genres of music. Today, for example, I listened to a rapper named The Game for the first time. I'm not exactly the biggest fan of rap, but hearing his lyrics, so real and heartfelt, I just zoned out and took it all in, it was so crazy, so awesome! I really enjoyed it : D

Finally, I've recently began to understand my fascination with history. I love it. End of story.

Of course, along with the good there has to be some bad..

Over Spring break, I had totally planned on legitimately starting the journey on my path back to fitness, I planned on painting and on reading, and then painting and reading some more..
That didn't happen. Unfortunately. I mean, I read a few books, and I drew a picture, and I went to 1 power abs session, but thats not enough. It just made me realize my tendency to start things and never finish them.

So thats my goal. Finally get my permit, read, paint, and get a dress for prom : P

Thats pretty much it for anyone who cares : D ♥

What is this feeling?...

Jealousy? Its possible.
Anger? That too.
Confused? Sure, why not?
Rejected? Unloved? Hurt? Pained? Sorrow? DISTRACTED?! Lets just throw 'em all in there too!

Alright. Not gunna lie, 1&3 are probably the most likely ones (& I just added the last one cause I literally just got distracted for about half an hour WHILE writing this freaking post! -_-). I feel like I'm not good enough, like, way more than before. This past weekend, I was on a youth group trip in California, a place called Camp Ramah in the middle of the mountains of Ojai. It's a beautifully secluded, pristine place, where stars are seen by the thousands, not tens. Anyway, I only found out I could go about a week before, so just being there was a miracle in itself, but I don't know.. For some reason, I didn't really have all that much fun.. I mean sure, it was amazing, I got to see all my Maryland friends, as well as all my friends from a bunch of other random states.. But I feel like over the course of the weekend, I was sort of replaced..

Okay, let me try to make myself clearer.. The trip was a sort of gathering. In my youth group, the Israeli Scouts, we have 'chapters' called Shvatim. Each Shevet belongs to a state, or a certain part of a state. My Shevet, for example, belongs to South Florida and it goes by the name of Shevet Almog. Marylands Shevet is called Gilad, LA's is Chen, Canada's is Chermon, and so on and so forth. Every year, the Shachbag (Shichva bogeret - aka, the high schoolers of each chapter) meet in California for a 3 day seminar that includes programs that teach us teamwork, helps us make friends, and inevitably, put 300 9th-12th graders together, many hook-ups and parties! I obvs did not partake in aforementioned hook-ups / :

Now, during the seminar, you're divided into smaller groups by grade. They take all the 11th/10th/9th graders in each Shevet, group them with a friend, and take a duo from each Shevet and put them together into an Achvah. I was placed in my Achvah with my best friend Ofir. Here is where my feelings start.. Of course, Ofir is my best friend. I love her. Really, I do. But this weekend, for some reason, I became so unnecessarily jealous. Sure, I'm a jealous person by nature, I'm not afraid to admit it, even though I really do try not to be, but everyone just seemed to like her so much more. Even one of my closest friends, Omri, the one I went to visit in Maryland, spent more time with her than with me.

Ofir is beautiful. Shes an amazing person, shes sweet, innocent, adorable, nice, a good friend, very smart, very dedicated and hard working.. Pretty much nothing I can compare too, hence it wasn't surprising when everyone chose her over me. Any sane person would rather be friends with her than with me. But just because it isn't surprising, it still hurts.

I feel so useless.

I know no-one reads this. Thats why I dont really have a problem revealing all this stuff. I mean, hell, if you do read this, I honestly have no idea why.. You probably hate me and are trying to unearth all my secrets and share them with the world! Just kidding. Noone probably cares that much. Alas, I keep returning to the same conclusions. How come I can't do anything about them?!

No cool things this time. I'll make another post later.

Fin.

La la la laaa Friends.

I don't really have any of those. ^^^



Anyway, I haven't posted in a while, mainly because I don't really know what to write. Sooo I kinda figured I would just jot down a couple of my most recent thoughts..

- Wow. Talk about assholes.

- I wish I didn't care.

- I cant believe they're actually going to go through with this.

- Possible worst thought: Frowns aren't upside-down smiles, it's the other way around.

- I wish I could see stars from here.

- I would love to start over.

Okay, I know these are probably really random, but it's kind of an assignment I'm supposed to do (Which would be to jot down random thoughts that pop into my head so I can look back on them and try to use them to discover more about myself.. Confusing, I know)

Anywhooo, since that probably didn't interest anyone, here are some cool things I've come across recently ( :
Obviously I didn't take any of these! They're incredible though!



HEDWIG! I'm so sad she's gone... ) : ♥♥♥♥

Misery.

I dunno if my mothers' life goal is to make me miserable, but she's clearly succeeding. The one thing that would make me the most upset is not going on that trip, and thats the one thing she has to take away from me! I wish there was something I could do to convince her to let me go..
Photo by: neuza teixeira (Flickr)

Anyway, I was told to start keeping a journal with my thoughts (Cause apparently it will help me divulge deep into my head and lead me on a path to self discovery). But it seems like every thought I feel should go in it, are thoughts that I'm trying to think of, to find something to write. Okay, I know that makes no sense, but I feel as though my thoughts are...fake?

I'm clearly confused by a lot of different things right now. I don't know what to do. I'm just really glad by the fact that I've got a whole new schedule for next semester! Hopefully things will be less seemingly stressful, and more seemingly relaxing.

I need a shower. ♥

Maryland.

So this weekend was definitely one of the greatest weekends of my life. Mainly because I got closer to some really, really, amazingly incredible people, as well as met some really great people too! But it also made me realise my intense cravings for some real, true friends. The guys here, they're amazing. The trust they have between them is one I don't think I've ever seen before. They would do anything for each other. They could hang out every single day and never run out of conversation topics. They'll always be there for one another, and the fact that they're all going their separate ways this summer only makes their bond closer. Of course, every one of these thoughts is from my own observations. I couldn't tell you what actually goes through their heads, but I feel like it's pretty plain to see. I want that. I want to be able to walk to a friends house and stay till 5 AM. I want no awkward silences or conversation breaks. I want trust. Maybe its just too much to ask for?
I stayed with my friend Omri (Staying, rather. It's my last night here) and it was really great. I've known him since 9th grade and I think this weekend really brought us closer together. He's totally obnoxious, in a good way (Most of the time!) except for when he's mean to his sister, whom I've just met and love! She's the cutest. His parents treated me so well, I really feel like I could call this place home. ♥
Sure, there have been minor speedbumps, but none to major. I admit, there were a couple misconceptions as well as a few disappointments, but it was still a brilliantly wondrous weekend.
I'm really going to miss it here, I definitely hope I'll get to see all the guys really soon. I'm really going to miss those buggers. ♥
Here are some more cool things.

Airport.

Delay: Hour and a half.
Car talk: Basically summed up into how I'm a failure and I will never succeed in anything I do, and I'm gunna end up working as a waitress all my life. Sweet! I love those talks!
Currently: Writing this blog post and listening to Dave Matthews Band<3
Mood: Well, it's complicated you know? I mean, who wouldn't feel totally elated after a conversation like that?!
Other: I gotta pee.

Oy.

Everything is going wrong. (Except for my 106% on my calc quiz today!)
I'm really not trying to make this some type of self pity, give me a spot to write down how much I hate my life, kinda thing.
I promise!
It's just, thats pretty much my life lately.
Good thing nobody reads this.
On Friday, I'm flying to Washington.
I was really, really happy and excited about it, until a few hours ago, when I realised how stupid I was to think I could fly to Washington by myself, without any set plans, and see myself surviving a 5 day weekend. Not happening.
The past few days haven't been all that great either.
(God this post is so negative and terrible and I hate it already)
Dumb boys made me angry and upset and frustrated, it's really not a great feeling to be ditched by someone, and I hope I never make anyone else feel that way (except for I think I just did..)
Life has just been really frustrating for me lately.
My grades are still down in the dumps, as well as my mood pretty much all the time.
My friends don't like me anymore, and there's a moron out to turn every remaining friend I have against me.
I just wish my life would rid itself of all this dumb drama.
I don't want it!
I really, really don't!
This weekend was supposed to be an escape, but for some reason, I don't know how effective it will be.

I can't explain it, I just feel like I want a fresh start.
I'm overwhelmed with everything around me.
This isn't a good feeling.
But alas, at this point, there's not really all that much I can do about it..
Here are a few things I've stumbled upon recently; I think they're all incredible.

Pure, Utter & Complete Frustration

Im so frustrated with myself. I honestly don't even know how else to start this post. Lately, nothing I've done has gone the right way. My grades are still in the shit-hole, and I cant seem to get them back up. All the changes I've been trying to put into effect have been failing miserably. My friends have slowly but surely begun to abandon me. And thats only the beginning of the thoughts I've been thinking lately. I guess I could see how this might seem as if all I'm trying to do is induce self pity and such, and that the only reason I've been writing this blog is to gather attention. But it's really not the case. I promise. If anything, I've been trying to use my blog as a source of motivation, however, due to my lack of consistent posting, that doesn't seem to be working according to plan.
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I don't know what's wrong with me. I keep finding myself reduced to tears because I've gotten so frustrated and overwhelmed by my surroundings. I'm suddenly more aware of little things my friends have said and done. Precisely the things I'd been trying to rid my life of, have just been coming back stronger than ever! It's come to the point where I really don't know what else to do anymore. I've been trying to write an essay for literally the past 4 or 5 hours. I've gotten nowhere. I feel like such a failure. My stupid arguments with my parents about my grades don't exactly help the situation. I've just been feeling so helpless. So weak. So lame. So pathetic. So done with it all. I just want this to be over. Maybe I need help, who knows? Maybe I need an escape? Again, I don't have that answer. All I know, I must make a change.

Dear Chris Byrd,

I never really knew you. I mean, sure, I knew who you were, and I'm pretty sure our paths crossed quite a few times, but nonetheless, we weren't actually friends or anything. I wish that wasn't the case though. I wish we had been friends. All I've been hearing lately is what a wonderful person you were. How your smile could light up a persons' day. How you were always there for a friend in need. How you didn't care about those dumb high school cliques, or a persons popularity, you were friends with anyone. How good you were. How full of life, and love and beauty you were. The difference you made in everyones lives. I wish we had been friends, Chris. I wish you were still here so we'd still have the chance. I hope you're in a better place now. I hope you're looking down and seeing all the lives you touched, and all the people who miss you with all their hearts.
♥Rest in Peace Chris

Changes

It recently dawned upon me, I don't like myself all that much. Sure, there are some aspects of myself that are impossible to change - things like looks, and height and such. However, there are many aspects over which I do hold control, albeit only to a certain extent - things such as the way I speak and act, how I chose to react in different situations, the list goes on. So from the month of November, I'm turning over a new leaf! Obviously, I wont be a new person overnight, I'm not expecting that though, but I do want them to slowly ease their way into my life.


I don't want to care as much. Im sick of growing miserable over things I've simply over-thought and over-analyzed. I want to get healthy. To get back into shape. I want to focus more. To pay more attention to the things and people around me. I want to stop making stupid decisions that I'll simply end up regretting. I want to be liked. & I want to like myself. Yes, I understand this wont be simple. As I said, I'm not expecting it to be. But how can other people like you, if you don't even like yourself? How much can you mean to them if you're meaningless to yourself? I can't help but become frustrated, because this sounded so much better inside my head. Oh well, shit happens.

photo-cred to monika7777 from photobucket

Thoughts & Realizations

Today, after reading several other blogs I came across, I realised how childish and immature my blog really is. Im a bit disappointed in all honesty. Looking through so many blogs, so many people's posts are so thought provoking, and deep and are so well written. Then I look back at my blog, and it makes me feel so shallow. There's nothing remotely interesting that anyone would really want to read, its all about random things that happen to me. I feel as though my blog needs a makeover, but in order for that to happen, it would need a new narrator as well. Neither of those are about to happen considering Im not about to turn into a metaphorical genius, but Im also not going to put my blog into another's hands. Shit happens. If you still wanna read my blog, then thats awesome! If not, I'll get over it and live.

dying.... D:

okay so im lying in bed, dying due to some spur of the moment disease or something and its really no fun at all.. i feel like i should go watch the austin powers movies i recorded! but cant/dont want to get up, which poses an issue.. /: i should really get started on the homework i didnt do yesterday, and im hoping this doesnt last until the weekend.. ): peace

alrightyy :)

soo a lot of stuff has been happening lately, first off, my birthday passed last friday! whoop whoop! i am now 16 bitches!!!!!!!! (: second, i went to the beach over the weekend which was really fun cause i really love it! (: 3rd, a few weeks ago i went to a midnight showing of rocky picture show! it was amazing!! if you dont know what it is, basically, its at this sketchy movie theatre called flippers, every other saturday night and they screen the cult classic from the 60's (with tim curry and susan sarandon) and actors re-enact the film on stage while people yell out random shit and throw stuff! its really exciting, and people get super into it, some get all dressed up, (like me and my friends did in the pictures) and its basically just a really fun experience! anyway, my friend alana and i have been obsessed with the movie, way before we even went to the showing, so we decided it would be cool to be part of the cast! (aka, the actors who re-enact the characters on stage) so we talked to the casting director who said, well first come to the next shows, get used to the feel of it, watch the actors and in a few shows we'll put you in.. anyway, last saturday, which would be our second show, i get a call at around 7 from one of the actors and he say: "a lot of our actors cant come today, so we need you to act tonight" obvs, i got really excited, but was scared as well cause i mean, neither of us knew all the lines or anything like that, but he said it was alright, and having someone who knew something was better than someone who knew nothing! so, obvs, we went for it! of course, i got up there, and when my part finally arrived i was soo scared! seriously, i was shaking, and both of us felt like we fucked up the whole thing, but it was deff a cool experience and i cant wait to try it again! oh, and i got molested by the guy who played my "love interest" in the movie, i swear the guy was like, 40 and i had to stradle him for some dumb scene, and obvs on our first night, half of our school decided to show up for the midnight showing! >.< haha whateverrr besides that, ive got a crap load of homework that i keep putting off due to my extreme procrastination skills, i feel like shit, im all stuffy and icky, and my friend carlys' brothers barmie is this saturday.. way to miss homecoming.. /: oh well, i hope itll be fun.. i gotta go do stupid crap for english class, but ill post again soon! <3

I AM....................... (:

BRACES-LESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha
besides the fact that i never got up the courage to ask that kid to homecoming, so my friend did it for me and found out that hes already asking someone else ): this day has been pretty much awesome (:
even though that did suck, not gunna lie... T.T
but yes, i dont especially love my teeth, but they deff look better than they did beforee (:

braces (: and cowardice ):

so i get my braces off monday!!!!!!!! WHOOP WHOOP! which is deff awesomeee (: but i still havent asked certain person to homecoming ): im really scared too /: its not a great feeling..
but ya, i got this weird sock thing thats supposed to reduce swelling, as well as an ankle brace, so i dont have to use crutches for a while now hopefully (: which is really great news, considering my back is so full of dumb kinks its ridiculous!
i hope i get the guts to ask tomorrow, if not, im just plain pathetic.. wish me luck /:

so im a cripple now /:

yeap, you heard me, straight up cripple ): meaning i cant walk for basically the next month! i dont think any of you realize how fat im going to get! this is going to be awful! and smack dab in the middle of cross country season?! this is deff not my cuppa tea! anyway, my awfully unawesome fall/trip/jump occurred at around 1 on friday night.. i was a bit impaired, and made a jump thats normally easy peasy, but for some reason, i didnt stick the landing ): epic failure, i know.. i was in the hospital drugged up on morphine till about 5 am cause my foot has swollen to the size of a melon ): so due to my stupidity, i wont be walking for around a month (or so the er doctor said) but tomorrow i got to the orthopedic, so hopefully hell give me some good news! in other news (ignore the repetitiveness) homecoming is coming up and i would really love a date, i do have a certain someone in mind, but hes not gunna ask ): im debating whether to ask him myself, or just fly solo /: and input is welcome! anyways, i b-ed my physics test, which im really shocked at, considering i thought i failed, so that makes me pretty happy, but thats about the only thing at the moment /: well, hope things take a turn for the better. peace out.

random but yea /:

soo ive got a shit load of homework to do, and a big physics test tomorrow, which im probably failing, and i really should be studying and stuff, but all i really want to do right now is watch rocky horror picture show.. this obsession has to be unhealthy /:

new laptop (:

yay!!!!!!!!! thanks to alyssa verola(/my long lost asian twin separated at birth who i rekindled my relationship with over the sale of her macbook), on wednesday i will be the proud owner of a new macbook! (: haha im soo excited! haha this post is for you lil deanzy (: you should be proud of me for finally investing in a new mac!! ♥♥ its been long enough (: haha and now, ill hopefully be able to get my hands on a copy of final cut pro and become an editing whiz and make you an incredible movie (: sound like a plan? (; haha gahh i cant wait till wednesday!!!!!!!! (:

flickr (:

so ive been blogging less and less lately, and that sorta sucks /: so im changing that! (: anyway, im in the process of making a flickr right now haha as youve probably figured out, im really into trying anything and everything d: so if youre intersted, check me out at http://www.flickr.com/photos/love356/ ♥
besides that, my junior year of high school began about a week ago, and as we're on block scheduling, ive got 4 classes this semester- drafting 2, calculus honors, physics honors and ap english language (: this year is going to be ridiculously difficult, but hopefully worth it!
as of lately, ive had lots of different things running through my thoughts, be it about people, places, myself and so on.. there are a lot of things im hoping i can change this year, so ive decided to make a list of them, and see what ive accomplished from it come next june (:
also, ive recieved a set date for getting my braces off (: september 21st, i cant wait until you finally arrive! (:
to be perfectly honest, im actually sort of excited for this year..

summer (:

so i can truly say that this summer has been one of the most confusing/exciting/amazing summers' of my life! i met some incredible people, did some incredible things i never thought i'd do, and brought to life, as well as back to life, some amazing friendships! school can wait, i never want this summer to end!! ♥ ♥ ♥

well... /:

to be honest, i dont really have much to write about right now.. i mean, im finally back home (which supplies mixed emotions) and so far ive seen a good few people (: which is good! and i missed my bed and i missed lots of people! anyway, ill update again once i can think of something worth updating about (:

dayummmm /:

okay, so i havent written a blog post in forever!!!!!!! damn i fail at this whole "im gunna write on my blog every day" thing /: okay anyway, since my last blog post, LOADS has happened! i went on a super duper amazingly stellarly incredible week long trip with a group of 30 other incredible people, and we went to a bunch of place all over israel and then joined a scouts group here in israel on their summer trip for a few days, where we met even more awesome people (: haha basically, the trip started at this water trail thing, which turned out to be really fun! then that night we slept on the shore of the kinneret! the next day, we tackled the jeudia, which is another awesome water trail thing, carrying about 10 pounds of water on our backs! then we climbed down a 10 meter ladder into freezing cold water and it was soo epic (: then we got to the summer trip and met some really great people haha and we stayed there for a few days, then we moved to this place called the latroon which housed all these war tanks and the next day we went to jerusalem, visited the holocaust museum and just wandered the city.. that night we slept in this tent in the middle of nowhere and woke up at 4 AM to climb metzada! all in all, mostly cause of the friendships i made that i know will last a lifetime, this was one of the most incredible trips of my life! (: im gunna miss all the people i met and i cant wait till i get to se them in february, and hopefully before then too! since then, ive just been travelling around, visiting friends, and shopping (: haha i can honestly say that this has been one of the most incredible summer in my life! (:

for deanzyyy! (;

care to write one for me? ;P

and damn i wish i had a cool nick name like lil deanzy or yo its deanzy or just plain deanzyy! ):

...continued (:

haha so i had another movie night with the same friends in bees feild, and this time we saw american pie 2, american wedding and the naked mile, as well as the girl next door!
and then last night i went and saw the proposal... ya ive basically seen more movies in the past week than ive seen in like, a year at home put together :P
whatever haha anyway yesterday besides the proposal, my friend, maayan, and i did makeovers and took stupid pictures which you can go see on facebook (: haha
im gunna go though, peacee

(: soooo as of late

in the past few days, ive basically been moving around, staying with a bunch of different people (: right now, im at my friend maayans house in shadmot devora, which translates to bee feilds :P haha
anyway yesterday and like, 3 days ago, i had movie nights whoop whoop! the one a few days ago was sorta lame, a 12 year old girl and i watched 3 12-year-old-girl-movies /: aka HSM3, marley and me, and twilight (: haha but yesterday i saw american pie 1, band camp and beta house, which were all hilarious (:
anyway, pretty soon ill be leaving for a week long trip with friends from my youth group which will be really really fun and im super psyched!! (:
in other news, i miss all my florida people! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
especially a certain one ): ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
i cant wait till i see you all again!
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today was epic (;

haha i bought my first ever mascara and eyeliner! haha a bit late i know, but im not really a makeup kinda gal :P anyway i was at the mall and it was the coolest thing, the whole bottom floor basically, was this giant vendor-food-buffet thing! it was ridic not even joking :)as soon as i can get one uploaded, ill do it! everyone has gotta see this epic-ness :P anyway, sister and dad just got here a little bit ago, so thats pretty cool too, and soon we're leaving to go visit some amigos (:
peace (:

omg! /:

so basically after i finished the island the other day, i read my sister's keeper, which i finished last night..
okay, i totally think that was one of the saddest books ive ever read in my life ): but now im totally looking forward to seeing the movie cause i know what happens..
but same as the island, if you get the chance, you should totally go read these, theyre incredible!
anyway, yesterday i went to the beach in hertzeliya, which was super nice cause of a combination of the weather, water, and people haha so ya, that was fun :) then i crashed at around 2 and pretty soon im going to the mall with some old friends from florida (:
peace

soo ya, im sorta on another continent right now (;

haha so yesterday at around 5 ish, i said goodbye to mi casa, and jumped in the car headed for fort lauderdale airport! whoopieeee (:
then i boarded some flight, got my but to atlanta, chilled for a few hours and downed a "london fog" a la starbucks (:
i then boarded another random 777 and was soon on my way over the atlantic (:
on the lovely 13 hour flight i rocked out to hendrix, floyd, zeppellin and sublime(;
and i watched the curious case of benjamin button and revolutionary road, neither of which were as good as i had hoped, but whatever.. and i also started this book called the island, by victoria hislop, which i have not been able to put down since getting off the flight, basically.. except to write this, obvs, and to go to a relatives 80th birthday dinner as soon as i got out the airport, but ya (: haha
seriously, if you have the chance, go read this book! its incredible (:
anyway im probably not gunna be going to sleep for a while, cause i totally intend on finishing this by tonight (:
anyway, i dont remember whether i blogged about my last night in florida or not, so quick recap (:
mine and adam's movie night (to see american history x) didnt work out ): but we ended up hanging out with mike t and chelsie for a bit and then going back to guids house to chill with him and gilmore (: pretty chill for my last night in the states
(: and by the way, in adams car, on his sirius xm radio or whatever, he has a channel devoted to movie soundtracks! GO CINEMATIC RADIO STATION! HOW EPIC?! (:
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

last post from florida (: / ):

so im not sure if i mentioned it or not, but im leaving in around an hour for 6 weeks in israel! (: WHOOP WHOOP
but im gunna miss everyone soo much! so please dont forget to keep in touch!
i ♥♥♥ you all (: haha
gotta go people
and feel better soph! youll get your post in a few hours (; ♥

OH MA GAWD! i totally forgot! d:

so a few days ago, i had a sleepover party with PRIYA (: haha my loveee! we went out for a lovely walk and ended up at the courts, which eventually led to sitting on a park bench with michael ruwell for an hour (: haha good times
anyway, before our stellar little twilight stroll, we pigged out on an AERO bar! YEA, AN AERO BAR!!!!!!! be jealous you americans (;
haha for those of you who dont know what an AERO bar is, its basically this chocolate bar that has these tiny air bubbles in, which make it lite and fluffly with this ridonkulous texture! (: its super duper cool! anyways, this specific AERO bar happened to be a MINT AERO, meaning that on the inside, the chocolate is LIME GREEN! ya, i know! how epic?!?!?!?! (: i happened to have bought this bar at the fresh market with ma fran tarafaye (: it was before a jamba juice run, and we ended up buying like 20$ worth of candy (: WHOOP WHOOP CHEESECAKE!!!!!!!!!! (:
after hanging out with michael for a bit, priya and i ended up going back to my place for an awesome sleepover (: and the next night, her and ian picked me up and we drove down to the everglades! and after we went swinging at like, 2 different parks (:
we're just so awesome!
love you all♥♥♥♥

gah ):

my toe is numb
thanks the the ridiculous amounts of bugs living outside my house! ):
theyre murder
true story!
by the way, i miss maxie♥

/:

so im deff nosebleeding
and its deff not awesome ):
it isnt even an epic nosebleed ):
fail

kris+noa=epic win (:

okay so whoever knows kristi and i knows we're probably 2 of the craziest people youll ever meet! and when you put us together, who knows what kind of stuff we'll do (: ♥
on our very first sleepover EVER, we stayed up all night, painted a painting, baked ridiculous cookies at 4 in the morning (meaning, some of our cookies had chili powder, others red hots, others m&ms and loads more) in order to find the best/nastiest cookie combo ever, obvs eating the gross ones on dares haha (; basically,
noa+kristi together = the most epic win EVER! (:
so today, after attempting (and failing) to write lovely plane letters, we decided we couldnt sit still that long, so we got up, ready for a new adventure (:
anyway, we came across one of those little kids' popout tents... and well, the rest is pretty self explainitory (;
haha i tried posting the video on this post, but the file was too big ):
but now, WERE ON YOUTUBE!!!!!! (:
you know you wanna watch it (;
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bC1DMutLOMQ
(:
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breaking the lazy habit (:

SO I JUST GOT SPIT ON........
WITH ICE COLD WATER....
BITCH.
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anyway haha that last post wasnt written by me, but if you can figure out who did write it however, props to you for solving this epic whodunit! (;
haha anyways, as an update on the last few days...
so ryan left this afternoon ): which is really sad but im glad i got to see him the other night, when he came over to say bye (: ♥♥♥ haha i cant wait for august 11th, when ill get to see him again (:
haha theres more to write, but im gunna go make stuff out of beads, so ill finish this post later (:
♥♥♥♥♥ -3:25 PM

randomness (:

my summer in a nutshell.....


tourturous runs at vista view and tree tops and 7AM (yes. meaning i have to wake up at six thirty)


random soaks in the embassy pool or friends pools or just a random puddle i find lying around.


yoga and pilates sessions with the famous lady that name escapes me at the moment.


eating orgasmic cookies and cookie dough and brownie cookie bars.


random story times on the trampoline with the ichy bugs, but quite entertaining stories.


long walks down those romantic sidewalks of embassy lakes with the love of my life late late at night whatching the cars go by.


followed by hilarious and acctual laugh my ass off movies that we drift off into sleep listening too at around six AM

only to wake up a half hour later to go run in which my days just repeat themselves. (unless it rains!!!! =])

my daddie (:

roses are red, violets are blue, i once was a sperm, that came from you
(:
haha but really..
i love my daddie! even though sometimes i dont show it, or even deny it, its always there. he's one of the most special, influential, reliable, integrity-filled(?), and amazing people i know! (:
i know sometimes i drive him crazy, unleash his temper, and push his buttons, and even worse, disappoint him, he will always love me unconditionally and thats an incredible feeling that i know i take for granted.
my dad is a modest, simple, hardworking man whos every action is done with others in mind.
i love my dad, even though i have a funny way of showing it (:
happy fathers day everyone (:
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cookies!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

3 guesses what ive made today!!!!!
you got it! COOKIES (:
i mean sure making them wasnt as fun as it was with mike t, but they did come out pretty scruptious! (:
chocolate chip cookies are the best! (:

haircut (:

haha so ya, just got home from the hair salon place.. and dang my hair is short!!!
right now, it actually looks sorta cute (: but thats with the blow out and everything.. hopefully it doesnt look too bad (: but i guess ill just have to wait and see! (:

my day so far... (:

so this morning, i woke up around 11 ish, brushed my teeth, washed my face and went downstairs! (:
after that, i popped in a yoga tape with the lovely wai lana (; and after that, a pilates tape with some other weird lady!
it was really fun (:
and later i ate a fresh mango, which i havent had in ages, so that was delish as well! (:
if the day continues this great, ill be a very happy camper!!!! (:

so mike d just made my day (:

01:31Noa

are you sad ryan and ari are leaving ):

01:31Michael

eh

yeah and no

not like i wont talk to them

ill see them in the world of warcraft!

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i love you mike d (:
you totally made my day (:

ya im in love♥♥ (:

(: with tucker max!!!!!!! ♥
ive been reading his book over the past few days, and i can honestly say that he is one of the funniest people ive ever stumbled upon in my life! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ (:
tucker max, youre my hero (;
haha whoever doesnt know who he is, go to tuckermax.com and get ready to laugh your ass off! (:
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ryan parker part dos (:

haha so i hung out with my friend ryan again last night (: at the same park that we chilled at the other night.. (:
and obvs no night at the park is complete without its set of creepers!!
basically, as soon as we arrived we noticed this small group of obnoxious people, 3 girls and a boy if im right, who were sitting on the park bench, like, screaming.. fun......
anyways, we sat on the swings for a while, and i learnt that i should deff not go down the slides cause drunk boys pee on them! GROSS!!!! >.<
then we established that i was a vampire (: cause apparently im cold blooded or something, and dont sleep at night (:
then i wondered about how many leaves are on every tree, which led to me wondering how many leaves, petals, and blades of grass there on on this planet.. and i couldnt think of a big enough number ):
all the while, we agreed that cooper city is an epic failure and there is absolutely nothing to do here ):
then ryan made fun of my dorky-ness cause i spent the day watching 7 hours of law and order svu with addie, cause its basically my second favorite show (: right after doctor who!!!!! (:
oh and ryan doesnt like macs or bbc america, so hes officially a butthead and a PUSHOVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (;
and then there was this area that continuously lit up and got dark, around 27 million times! it was creepy!
and then i was mars/venus! but it disappeared!!!! ):
anyway, last night was obvs another great night (;
im gunna be really sad when ryan goes off to fsu ):
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p.s. im NOT a scaredy cat! ):

up (:

so last night, i went to the movies with my friend tara!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and we saw UP! (:
it was super cute, and sorta sad, but i didnt cry! (tara did d: haha)
anyway, there was this little dog named doug in it, and he was adorable and he could talk!!! it was so epic
anyways, he told this hilarious joke and i could not stop laughing about it (:
so i asked tara to text it to me, cause i was bound to forget it, so she did! (:
joke: "so a squirrel went up to a tree and said he forgot to store acorns for the winter and now i am dead. haha its funny because the squirrel is dead." (:
ya, how great was that?! (: up is adorable. go see it.
IN 3D!!!!!! (:

YOGA (:

so today, my friend kristi and i learned yoga and pilates through watching these ridiculous exersize tapes (:
it was so epic!
we decided that we would make our own yoga video, and spice it up a bit (;
but we've come to the agreement that we have to be able to do everything on the tape by the end of the summer, cause at this point, we're sorta failures (:
haha oh well, it was fun (: and we are gunna be so jacked by the time summers over! (:
basically, yoga+kristi+noa+pilates+chinese/hawaiian yoga lady with a funny accent=a really great day (:

oh
and apparently im allergic to grass or something ): CRY

oh (;

i love brandon workman and his hugs (: ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

ryan parker (:

haha okay so tonight i hung out with one of my really great friends ryan! (: who happens to be a total pushover, just saying (;
hes honestly one of the best people i know and im really glad we met this year! whooo yay for the first night of winter break! (thanks brock snider <3>
okay so tonight was pretty epic (: 
after ryan picked me up at like 11-ish, we decided to go to this random park in flamingo gardens, which i thought was dino park, but i was obvs wrong, but that doesnt matter (: anyway, we spent a good half hour on the swings, which are deff my favorite things in the WORLD! (: its too bad i never learnt the right swinging form ): epic fail
anyway, a little after we go there, this car drove by and stopped right behind where we had parked.....and just stood there.....with its headlights on........FOR LIKE AN HOUR!!!!! obvs this guy was planning on killing us, so we put our heads together and came up with some clever plans (not to get us killed, "or worse, expelled":) ya ryan im a dork (: OMG HOLYSHIT I JUST REALISED THAT rYAn HAS THE WORD YA IN IT!!!! so epic 
anyways, im getting off topic, so we came up with some super stellar (yay zenon!) plans A-F so that we could run away and save ourselves in case the man decided to kill us, then again, were just lucky he didnt have a sniper riffle, cause if he did we would probably be dead ): haha so the CREEPY CREEPER kept us occupied for quite a while (:
all this planning made me hungry, so i told ryan about our groovy CHEESE moon, which sadly was hiding tonight, which made me sad ): 
all the while, we had been lying on the grass looking at the stars, and i was getting SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO itchy ): it sucked.. and ryan was being a meanie poopie head and trying to push me down into the grass, in his feeble attempt to prove that he wasnt a pushover.. he obvs FAILED (: even though i am really weak) 
i then told ryan that i had never seen a scary movie, oh ya, by the way i havent ever seen a scary movie, so ryan said that we had to go see a scary movie before he goes off to college, which is in 8 days by the way, i shall miss you muffin ): so i told him about the new movie with the super creepy girl ester/ether (dont remember which) and how scared i got just by watching the trailer, and ryan, being the sweetheart that he is, is now forcing me to see the stupid scary movie this week! i swear if that boy brings a knife to shove in my face after the movie, i will legitimately cry! ):
somewhere between here i told ryan about my blog, and how it came to be, and he promised he would follow me, and remind me to post in it every day! so if i dont comment, its soooo his fault (;
also somewhere during our adventure, ryan discovered my non ticklishnessness (; and how beastly i am at thumb wars (: *dont mess bitches*
anyway, i have to be up early for practice tomorrow morning at vista! yay me
so peace out homes
tonight was deff a night to remember (;

HOLYSHIT (:

i just noticed my sea lice is in the shape of a smiley on my shoulder!
how epic is that?!?! (:

(:

so lately, this past summer, ive been spending some quality time with my family
and theyre really not so bad (: haha i even quite like them sometimes! (:

omg!!!!!! wtf?

okay so ive been clicking next blog for the past 15 minutes, and i legit haven't gotten to any blogs in english?!

its quite the bother /:

epic fail ):

hahaha (:

omg so this blog isnt actually gunna be about sexual thoughts (:

i made it so i would be able to comment my dork friend gregs blog, and this website made me make my own (:

haha so im super unoriginal so i went on google to find a blog name generator for my lovely new blog

and came upon this site http://gzzt.org/pages/weblog_name_generator.php (:

thats where sexual thoughts and jaded fantasies came about

so i doubt ill keep this up, but if i do, i hope you enjoy it! not that anyone besides greg will read it (:

oky doky (:

l8r h8rs (;